Forever is Tomorrow
2nd Edition Released:
January 5th, 2023
Years of dialysis and waiting gave birth to it. Nights thick with unspeakable weight contributed too. Forever Is Tomorrow is a reckoning with mortality and memory. These poems don’t ask for permission, they simply exist because they had to. This book is a closed door, a stitched wound, and the final exhale of a chapter that nearly never ended and may always return… Someday.
A collection written on the edge of survival.
the Chaos Series
Ten volumes emerge from the underside of emotion. They represent one long breath held across the quiet and the breaking. They encompass everything in between.
This is not a single story, but a collection of echoes.
A study in what it means to be human when clarity is rare and feeling is constant.
The Chaos Series spans ten volumes of reflection, disorientation, stillness, and searching. It is a record of the internal storms we rarely name — the ones that unfold without ceremony, in the small, private ruptures of everyday life. There is no single thread to follow, only a rhythm of feeling: circling, softening, returning.
Some of these pieces speak from personal ache.
Others are observations — glimpses of the quiet collapse and quiet resilience seen in strangers, lovers, friends, and the world itself.
Moments where someone paused just long enough to be witnessed — or to vanish.
Each volume moves fluidly into the next.
There are no hard divisions.
Just a pulse — sometimes stuttering, sometimes steady — tracing the ways we hold on, let go, or forget which we’re doing.
These writings don’t offer answers.
They offer atmosphere. A mirror. A question left hanging in the space between lines.
They hold sorrow without spectacle.
Longing without shame.
Hope without demand.
For those who have felt too much or too little,
For those unraveling slowly or stitching themselves back in silence,
For those who feel most seen when the world stops trying to fix them —
This series offers recognition, not resolution.
Chaos, in these pages, is not destruction.
It’s being awake inside your own experience —
and still reaching for language to carry what won’t let you forget.
Chaos, in these pages, is not destruction.
It’s being awake inside your own experience —
and still reaching for language to carry what won’t let you forget.
The beginning before anything else broke.
Chaos: A Journal of Being Human
Released: May 28th, 2025
This first volume is a quiet reckoning with the experience of existing — imperfectly, intimately, and without resolution. It’s not about grand transformation or triumph. It’s about survival on the smallest, most honest scale: waking up, feeling too much, carrying weight no one sees. These entries were written for the person who doesn’t know what they’re doing here, but keeps showing up anyway. This book is not an answer — it’s a mirror.
Chaos: A Study of Shadows
Released: June 13th, 2025
This is where the hidden things live. Volume two goes underground — into insecurity, silence, trauma, and the things we learned to hide to be loved. It’s a study of internal shadows and the way pain echoes when it isn’t spoken. These pages hold the version of you that flinches at kindness, that questions stability, that braces even when nothing’s coming. This isn’t darkness for drama. It’s darkness for truth.
The light didn’t leave. It just changed shape.
Chaos: The Weight of a Memory
Released: July 1st, 2025
This is where the hidden things live. Volume two goes underground — into insecurity, silence, trauma, and the things we learned to hide to be loved. It’s a study of internal shadows and the way pain echoes when it isn’t spoken. These pages hold the version of you that flinches at kindness, that questions stability, that braces even when nothing’s coming. This isn’t darkness for drama. It’s darkness for truth.
Some things don’t stay gone just because they’re over.
Chaos: A Study of Truths Unspoken
Released: July 25th, 2025
This is where the withheld lives. The things you thought but never shared. The letters you wrote but never sent. Volume four speaks from the cracks — the missed moments, the swallowed emotions, the tiny betrayals that built into silence. These aren’t confessions. They’re recognitions. This book is about what you keep in your chest because you weren’t sure the world would hold it gently. It will hold you here.
Not everything needs to be said. But some things still need to be written.
Chaos: A Study of Distance
Released: August 5th, 2025
This volume doesn’t rage — it waits. It reaches. It lingers in the pauses. A Study of Distance is about the ache of disconnection — from people, from time, from yourself. It’s about the slowness of drift, the soft tension of wanting to be close but not knowing how. This isn’t a scream. It’s the sound of not being called back. Of watching something beautiful forget your name.
Sometimes the space between is what hurts most.
Chaos: The Anatomy of Doubt
Released: August 2st, 2025
This one is for the inward spirals. For the questions that come back sharper every time. Volume six dissects uncertainty, not to solve it, but to sit with it. It tears at identity, healing, the illusion of progress — and lets you ask what you’re really made of when belief falls away. It’s fragile and furious. This book is the moment between trusting yourself and tearing it all down again.
What if the thing unraveling was never me, but the idea of me that I tried to hold together?
Chaos: A Map of What Remains
Released: September 5th, 2025
Here are the fragments that didn’t get swept away. Volume seven traces the aftermath — the slow rebuilding, the carrying forward, the pieces you picked up without realizing. These poems aren’t about starting over. They’re about living with what’s left. It’s a map not of where you’ve been, but of what managed to stay. Even if you didn’t ask it to.
This is what’s left after the storm didn’t stop.
Chaos: A Theory of Falling
Released: September 22nd, 2025
This is the unraveling that no one warned you would feel like clarity. Volume eight embraces collapse as a kind of surrender — not to defeat, but to truth. These entries tumble through loss, choice, letting go, and the strange peace that can come at the bottom. This is not a recovery book. It’s the step off the ledge when you’re finally too tired to keep pretending you’re fine.
Some descents aren’t failures. They’re flights in reverse.
Chaos: A Tether to Tomorrow
Released: October 8th, 2025
Volume nine is about the part of you that keeps going — not because things are easy, but because something inside you still believes there’s more. It’s quiet hope, honest reflection, and the slow untangling of what it means to want something beyond the ache. These pages don’t promise resolution — just breath. Just momentum. Just another sunrise.
Hope isn’t loud. It’s the thread we refuse to drop.
Chaos: A Testament to the Quiet
Coming: October 24th, 2025
The final volume closes not with a grand finale, but with stillness. These pieces are gentle. They’re soft truths whispered after everything else has been said. This book is about the quiet work — the days that don’t feel like healing but still are. It’s where the echoes quiet down, the rage fades, and the self sits in what’s left. Not whole. But here.
Some healing happens in silence — not seen, but still real.